Russell Rides Back into the Flow of Life

Russell Rides Back into the Flow of Life

Today, June 9, 2009, is the day Russell got back on his bike!

In November ’07, I had a serious freak accident while riding my mountain bike crossing a busy Austin street. So many factors contributed to the event that it is hard to imagine forces coming together in such a way to ultimately result in such severe injuries. Yet, I can’t help but to reflect with the blessing in the situation within the reality that I could have lost my life or the use of my body on that fateful day.

Some nineteen months later, the day arrived when it was time to reclaim my passion. You know the old saying “it’s just like riding a bike”, that really is true. It was like a day had never passed as I traveled the exact same route to the Hike and Bike trail right past the spot where my wife, some city workers, the police and a handful of passer-bys watched them load me into an ambulance.

There was a vibration that is hard to describe, emanating from my left side around the center of my injuries. It feels like the same effect as you get when listening to crystal bowls or vibration through sound, so I think it must be a release of some sort. I know that I have felt grief over the things that I felt was lost…my health, time…or even a piece of myself. But what I’ve learned is that is only one perception that I can choose. The other might be that I became vulnerable……open to receiving……I had new experiences that illuminated a side of me that I had never seen, nor had those around me. One perceived area of loss allowed room for something totally different.

So how was the ride? Here is my interview with myself(lol):

Did I feel the energy of fear? ~ no fear….caution

Did it feel good? ~ incredibly freeing to the body, mind and spirit

Any shaky moments? ~ none….really smooth

Did I wear a helmet? ~ a helmet….. is the reason I have a brain that says wear a helmet!

Best way to describe the overall feeling? Very healing on many levels

Best thing that happened? ~ Sunset at the river on the footbridge………and the four year- old that stopped in the park to say hello and tell me the he had just played basketball.

Lasting impressions? ~ Gratitude beyond measure

Any tears? ~ enough of those shed already……….this was the true celebration ride

Anything to say? To my friends, family and Beckie…..Thanks for having the courage to see me through my strongest and weakest moments. I know it has been hard to watch and now it is time to erase that vision and replace that vision with the current one. See me as a survivor and a warrior for passion……..someone that is fully riding in the flow of life.

smiles, Russell




The words that conjure up mixed feelings seem to draw me in; I guess you could say I was vulnerable to that (tee hee). A discussion with a friend led me into thoughts around the true essence of being vulnerable, which means capable of, or susceptible to, being wounded or hurt. Vulnerable also means open to moral attack, criticism and temptation.

If you are open to all those things through vulnerability, then it would stand to reason that you are open to receiving love, nurturing and basically all emotions. The idea of being vulnerable seems to carry negative connotations around a state of weakness, but in truth, should carry a more positive response as the apparent gateway to receptivity.

A quotation from Anne Morrow Lindbergh that I really like is, “I do not believe that sheer suffering teaches. If suffering alone taught, all the world would be wise, since everyone suffers. To suffering must be added mourning, understanding, patience, love, openness and the willingness to remain vulnerable.”

In reflection, some of my most profound experiences resulting in a conscious shift emanated from my own personal moments of vulnerability. In those instances where I became vulnerable, I also became aware and, through that consciousness evolved the positive features of my story. Now for one of my most vulnerable activities, I will engage with angels for a whisper on the subject:

The heart must open fully in order to receive love, so you must remove boundaries in order to assist in manifesting the balanced heart. A warrior can express the loving spirit while wearing armor, yet finds it difficult to receive love while covered with protection. This represents the true nature of boundaries and being vulnerable.

Tremendous courage and the highest example of the human spirit shine in the light of vulnerability. In this state of being, barriers and limitations are removed, making available possibilities that were not apparent in the moments prior. Without limiting factors entering the mind, the spirit is free to explore new opportunities and experiences.

The depth of feelings experienced in a vulnerable state reaches levels within your existence that can uncover lost information and feelings in the energetic search for truth. Within your highest vibration, truth and vulnerability illuminate purpose, integrity, faith and love with extreme clarity.

To fully experience all aspects of life, be willing to allow yourself to be vulnerable and present in moments of strength as well as times of weakness. The energy of receiving love from being vulnerable creates a wave of relief that washes away all barriers standing between you and the playful, compassionate, nurturing light of the Highest Power in the Universe, God and the angels.